Ultrasound results: Hi kid.

So... it's official.  The baby decided to stick around!!

This is has been an interesting week for me.  Last Tuesday, Aug 16th, I started bleeding.  Not a ton, but enough that it was more than a few spots.  And I was concerned.  Hubby called a family friend Bryan- and he came over at 10:30 pm to give me a priesthood blessing.  In the blessing, hubby stated this was a trial of my faith.  After the blessing, I felt a sweet peace and reassurance inside.

The next day, I called my doctor.  They decided to alternate the Lovenox shot (blood thinner) to every other day.  (Maybe I was just getting too many blood thinners.)  I still would have spotting frequently, but they said as long as it's not a lot, it's okay.  My ultrasound appointment was scheduled for Aug. 31st.  I pretty much had some bleeding every other day.  But it wasn't consistent.  But I had some cramping off and on.

Well then Wed, Aug. 24th, I was spotting in the morning.  That afternoon, I had a lot of cramping.  When I got home, I discovered I had bleed out through my shorts.  (a lot.)  I called the doctor's office to see what I should do.  They wanted me to come in Thursday or Friday to check it out.

We were blessed that my husband was able to arrange to take an hour off from work to go with me to this appointment, because usually Fridays are his busiest days.  The ultrasound tech was able to locate the baby.  It stuck around.  There was still one there.  So maybe all that bleeding was the other embryo passing?  Or a blood clot?  Who knows.  But one of those little embryos stuck around and attached high up in my uterus.    And we were able to hear the heartbeat.  It was a fast paced sound.  (104 beats per minute.)  They said anything over 100 is good.  So... it's still there.

It felt weird hearing the heartbeat.  It's like I was wondering- is that sound coming out of me??  I guess I still haven't accepted the reality yet that I'm pregnant.  I still feel guarded.  Like part of me feels like this isn't real or isn't going to stick around.

But later I came to the realization that I can be excited for this now.  And if things change down the road, well then I'll mourn for that loss then.  For now, I am pregnant, and there is a heartbeat,  so that needs to be celebrated.  

That evening, I called my family to tell them I was pregnant.  I'm not telling everyone yet.  Just family and friends I consider family.  It's still so new, and there is of course a chance of miscarriage in the first trimester.  So I'm going to wait to tell the world until later.  But I told those I'm closest to.  And the more people I called, the more the reality set in that this was real.  

So... that's my news.  I'm pregnant.  :)