I am back at the point where I can look at newborn babies again, and it doesn't bother me. I can play with other people's kids and enjoy it.
But every now and then, things get to me.
On Sunday, I was putting up the Christmas tree and stockings by myself because my husband had to work. And I started getting sad. I only hung up the 2 stockings with my dogs names on them. I didn't even hang up mine or my husbands. I didn't feel like it. I really started feeling down. What was the point? Most of fun of Christmas involves the excitement of little kids.
Last year, my hubby volunteered to work on Christmas day, so that this Christmas he would have off. We planned it that way so he would be able to spend the 1st Christmas with our child. That obviously didn't work out. So... that Sunday was hard.
That being said, I do know the true meaning of Christmas is to celebrate and honor the birth of Jesus Christ. This year, my church did something different that really helped me focus on others, and not on myself. And it really made it special this year. And helped me forget about my current situation.
They had a calendar to download which had suggestions for each day, and ideas for how you could #LightTheWorld. They were usually service opportunities. And I tried each day to do one of them. (And was successful for most of the days.)
This is my biggest secret to combating the feelings I have while I go through this frustrating process. When I am focused on others, I tend to not think about my own issues. I know it sounds really simple, but it really does work for me.
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